you tell me impatience
you tell me impenitence
you tell me inglorious

you kept counting on me

i kept screaming
silent scream

i kept waiting
waiting for your mind changing

i kept asking
asking for what turned out to be in vain

i kept crying
crying, crying, crying

and the dawn is coming
and tomorrow is never coming

i was jealous
i was selfish
i was greedy

true, true, ture,

but i am a creep
creeping to go over the limit
creeping to overwhelming
creeping til the inevitable ending
i want you all,your body, your soul
your soul,your soul

i was screaming

i was waiting, waiting, waiting

i was asking, asking for in vain

i was crying, crying til the dawn coming

and tomorrow is never coming

how can i forgot
your last words
like thunderstorm
relentlessly beat on me
beating, beating, beating, …

but  i am a creep
creeping between you and me
like a stranger

i was waiting, waiting, waiting

i was asking, asking but in vain

i was crying, crying under the sun

and the new day is never coming

恍惚中我会突然醒来.还好周遭一切不是一片白色护士拿着点滴.眼睛是睁不开的.像吸毒一样流泪打哈欠流鼻涕.空调百叶来回摆动.一侧身体被吹的发麻.头晕的疼.唇干舌燥.腹如刀绞.冰冷的床单.哦不.地板.硬邦邦的.必须要机械重复做的事情.苦苦等候的讯息.一秒一秒不肯来到的时间.总归没法到达.我又何必一次次醒来,假装期盼的每每都失落而归?
毫无疑问.我的心没法感知我的手,我的身体也属于另一个人.我没法不苦苦的搜索连接上他的途径.我自己,自然是毫无意义了.我的存在已经成了一个笑话,我真是自作多情,自寻烦扰.难道还不够自取其辱的吗? quizas. quizas. quizas. 我要专注在笔尖.哦.这滴滴答答的声音真让人受不了.我要把手机砸掉.你告诉我多么快捷的联络.可你不知道,漫长的等待让人难熬.这更浪费了我的时间.我等不到.拉上窗帘.谢幕了.哗.哗.电源一个接一个熄灭.亮光一屏屏消失.我穿着黑色的衣服.把自己埋葬.

 

test test

把最圣洁的身躯,也涂满污泥
土地是最公正的裁决者
再高傲的雪,也只为衬托乌黑的肮脏
在地里,没有高低贵贱
没有字字珠玑,不许孤芳自赏

让滚烫的熔岩,煎熬我的腐朽的躯壳,
放出阴暗的虫子都见见阳光;
让皮鞭耕犁,深深陷入我的折的翅膀;
让陈年酒酿,侵蚀折磨我的五脏六腑,
郁结旧情不得释放;
让露水,不再是泪水,
在你的晨曦划过我的脸庞

太阳,
刺瞎我的双眼;
月亮,
把我染成金黄,
麦地一样的金黄;
我得残废到失去思想,
高高的头颅也被迫陷入泥塘,
方能接受土地的裁决—
你不是虞姬,也不是霸王,
一再再三也不过被人当作闹剧收场,
英雄泪,点点都洒入儿女情长.